Twenty years ago I crossed the Great Abyss and connected with the photon or spiritual light. I tried to dissolve myself in a type of spiritual suicide but it didn’t work. I was able to move into a new type of consciousness that percieved things in an architypal or self-evident way but reached a point where I could go no higher. No matter how hard I tried to go into the light I would come back down as soon as I quit pushing.
In almost horror I noticed that the gestalt of my awareness, the main core of my personal awareness was slowly moving downward. All those beautiful illuminations were moving down into ordinary mental space. I felt compelled to vomit them out in words. That was how Magister Templi came about. It was simply a way for me to release the terrible pressure of my own thoughts as they moved down ward.
A bit later the core moved into the emotional area and really began to wreak havoc by stirring all kinds of things up that had been lying dormant for years. I began to realize that one by one I was awakening the higher astral bodies and moving downward into the lower astral planes. This has been going on for twenty years now. It is not a fast process at all.
In the creation and integration of these astral bodies and energies I have through the years been in a life or death struggle with an alien serpent like intelligence. It seemed that we were in a struggle over these newly created astral bodies. I would always seem to win just barely. I often wondered just what was going on.
The activation of the etheric double was strange. For the first time one projected double could reach out and feel another one as a solid object. It was soon after that I experienced a very vivid dream in which a large serpent coiled itself around me and was squeezing me. I reached my arms out and touched it. I could feel the scales but the strange thing was I could feel only half the snake. The other half was already inside me. In the dream I moved my body and arms in such a way that I could feel the serpent sliding/slipping upward over my head. Later I realized it was not the serpent but I was shedding an old serpent like skin that I couldn’t integrate. All the rest of the serpent was now integrated and a part of me.
I had literally integrated my reptile brain for the first time! This makes me wonder about the symbolism of the serpent in old mythologies and religions. When we talk about such things are we really talking about our own reptile aspects?
But recently
